Saying Goodbye, Starting over, Rising up, and Moving On

There seems to be a time in life when everything comes crashing down, overwhelms us with a cause, enlightens our spirits, challenges us, humbles our hearts, and marks our minds with a reality check.... This seemed to have been one of those weekends that hits on each and everyone of those labels yet there are so many more I could add, describe and share with you....


Saying a final goodbye is never easy no matter the time, the day, the cause, or the person.... Our lives are filled with reasons for things happening... we find those in prayer, meaning to our lives, our day to day challenges, enlightenment of the heart, and a simple meeting of a stranger... This week we say good bye to a man I have come to know 4 weeks. He was a great brother of the fire service whom suddenly left us for heaven. Finding how much he touched others lives, his purpose, his legend, his movement of his journey leaves us with not only sadness but enlightenment, guidance, and an example of true love.... Don, R.I.P. my friend... one day we will all meet again.. I have been honored to have done and will be honored to present you to those attending to, witnessing in, and watching over your memorial service as we say goodbye to you on Tuesday.



Starting over and moving on.... Have you ever had a circumstance come into your life that almost seems to force you through this challenge and you find yourself wandering where to start, what to do, how to manage, and many other unanswered questions? I find myself on that very lonesome island right now... I know via prayer, long thought, some resting of the mind, and a deep look into whom I am, want to be, and desire to grow toward that I will find my path, my guidance, my answers..... I shall express my thoughts via the tip of my pen the press of the key to find my way. You may be called upon to help me resolve these issues in time...... thank you for your support



Watching her grow..... I have one of the greatest gigs in the world.... I get to be a father to one of God's greatest gifts... My little princess... This weekend was a weekend of just hanging out, coloring in self expression, laughing those deep belly laughs, and just witnessing in awwww how much she has grown in the 4 years she has been here with us.... her self expressions, vivid thoughts, candid visions, and desires to be, to do, and to overcome.... I am blessed to have one of the most beautiful daughters a father could ever ask for. I look forward to each and every minute spent... each moment shared, and each day to come... She is my first thought, my main focus, my final prayer each and every day of my existence... Little princess... daddy will always be here for you no matter what anyone says, tries to do, or attempts to create. Your are always in my heart, my thoughts my prayers. I look forward to each and every day watching you become who you desire to be. I will support you, guide you, stand next to or behind... whatever you need... daddy will be here.

As you can see by the endless ramble of my thoughts I am filled with the emotions of a rainbow of colors.... It seems to be a book of short stories.. chapters completed, unwritten, half finished, and yet one title wouldn't even begin to cover all that has been displayed on this page..... I am sure in time the colors will become more organized and paint of clearer picture..... Until then..... enjoy the colors... it seems as if its the only thing that makes any sense right now and the only thing I feel I can complete for you.... until we meet again