New Chapters.......

We all long to find that one we were meant to be with.. That soul mate... the unequivocal connection destined to open our hearts to something so real we question its very existence. For those of you whom have experienced such a relationship in life you will know they can be intoxicating, and exciting.... They bring you the kind of feelings that cause you to experience a fluttering in your chest that can keep you up at night just thinking about what lies ahead.

I have been blessed to meet some very interesting and very special people along my journey. Some of you have become great friends.... Some of you showed me that it is OK to start over, you opened my heart to the renewed possibilities that yes there is someone out there for all of us.. The search is just part of the journey. The interesting twist to all of it... sometimes things happen and you were not even looking for them.  God has a plan for each of us and we must trust in Him to provide the guidance.

We all know we search for that one true person who "gets us"... They are not afraid to commit to someone who may have a few imperfections, who doesnt always have a good day but focuses on a better day tomorrow. That one person to walk beside you when all is well, that one to walk in front when you need a guide through a troubled time, and that one to walk behind you when they know you may need to go about it alone yet will be there if you fall.

I am here to admit I have found that one. I have found the one who speaks to my soul without ever saying a word. That one that when you know.... you just know. She keeps me grounded, she makes me happy beyond anything I have ever known before... She challenges me to be better even when she thinks I am already perfect. The touch of her hand makes me as nervous as my first school dance. When she smiles at me..... the brightest of days light up that much more.. The laughter of her voice, the concern and compassion she has shown even through recent difficult times. She has been there..

One of the most important things about all of this is that she is very nurturing and kind to the most important little girl in my life. She knows that she already has a mother but also knows it is very important for me that she have a role model for when she spends the time with her daddy too. Its easy for her because she too has a daughter. They are pretty much the same age and have been friends for quite some time (almost 3 years now). You have seen the pictures and just how well they get along. That makes it even easier to accept what God has set before me.

You all are very important to me, family and friends. I wanted to take a moment to share a small part of the one person whom my heart has fallen for, my mind has been engulfed with, and my soul has been touched with. It's only the beginning of many memories to come and I know in time those will be shared with all of you.

Weighted down......

Ever have a day or a time in your life where it seems as if there are not enough hours in a day? A time when the weight set upon your shoulders or your mind seems to be far more than one should have to endure.. Do you ever feel alone in making the decisions that have presented themselves without warning and you have no idea which will be the best to choose?


Which way do you go? With whom do you find yourself turning to? Prayer seems to be a release for me.. Giving it to God and allowing him to handle it for me.. Then my impatience kicks in and I seem to miss His guidance or messages. Far to often I find myself in this situation.

This seems to be one of those times in my life where I am faced with the heavy decisions. Unfortunately they seem to pile up without resolution. As I contemplate how I got to this point: Is it due to not enough hours in a day or is it "sweeping it under the rug" and hoping it goes away...... For that I truly do not know the answer. Maybe you have found yourself here.. what did you do?

 Yesterday is Yesterday... The past... You cant change it only learn from it. Tomorrow... we truly don't know what it brings... So we have today. Focus on what matters and keep walking forward. Never look back because for some reason you made the decisions you have and for reasons only you know why you based them from. Maybe it be a financial limitation, some restriction in your life, maybe it is the fear of doing something new... Maybe it is a negative experience that keeps you at bay from ever returning to what once was. Whatever it may be... Wherever you may find yourself.. and Whatever it is that may be occupying your mind... Give it to God.. He is always there for you when it seems as if no one else is.

Forward Motion

Each day brings a new experience to us... Many of us think... "It's just another day" or  The sun has risen on a new dawn yet our lives are as they were the day before... Maybe so with a 9-5 task oriented job but you are not on the "clock" all day. It is up to us to make it different. It could be parking in a different spot, a different route to drive... sitting at a different seat at the table... we may chose to drink something we have never tried before... We could decide that today something in our life is not going to bother us as it did the previous day... The past is the past. Whatever it may be.... make it different.


That new experience could be taking next steps.... moving to the next level, turning the page. Whether it be a book, education, or even in a relationship.. We are destined to set our own journey. The one thing we often have to remind ourselves is not to embrace the race but to endure the journey. Take it as it comes and try and not force it to happen. Allow it to develop. I find myself in these sort of "contemplation's" now days in regards to new events arising in my own life.. I just have to remember that God has placed this before me for a reason and in time that reason will present itself. For now I must enjoy the experience as it evolves.



We can plan for tomorrow but there are no guarantees. Is every investment a sure thing? Do we know exactly what we will be doing next Thursday morning at 9am? Exactly?! I bet not. So take today for today. Walk one step at a time and just embrace what arises in front of you.. You never know... You might just miss the one thing you have been searching for all your life simply because you were moving too fast.

A Perfect Match

Where are we headed? What are we meant to be? What is it we were placed here to do..... Who are we suppose to share that journey with?

At the end of the day we may find ourselves asking these very questions before we close our eyes and drift off in slumber. The questions may come at various stages of our lives. Often times they may be the result of an event that has taken place causing us to "re think" our purpose, our focus, our desires and goals. Yet others may find that its finally time to focus on what truly matters and seek a different path than the one we have been walking.

Whether it be the right career for what us, or the perfect relationship...the one desire to meet that drives an eternal happiness unlike any other that could never be matched... Those desires may last us a lifetime.... others may burn for a season, a specific chapter in our lives. Whatever it may be, we all strive for it. We seek a means to occupy that emptiness and relieve us of our burdens...  It may be through a higher power, it may be through a love so deep we dont even know how to react when it does hit us... Often times we feel undeserving of what we have received when truly it is what we had been seeking all along. If this has happened to you did you find yourself saying... "This couldn't possibly be for me..."

How do we manage it.... How do we accept it... All answers, that given the proper time and focus we will find, we will process, and we will accept. Think about some of the events that have taken place in your life thus far... Were you looking for them or even wanting them when they happened? And how did you manage them when you did realize there is no turning back now? Did you cash in the chips and run or did you stay and see it through.. Maybe you accepted it for the fact that it had been placed in front of you for a reason and you took the time to make the most out of it. How did you know, what was it that told you this was meant to be...?

Both physical and spiritual relationships seem to happen that very way. We yearn to find that one to fill the void in our heart. To accept us for all of our flaws and shortcomings... That one to share a bond, a love so strong that even the toughest storms along the way can be weathered out. We can look back into our lives and see what has taken course... what events and relationships we once thought were failures now are recognized as actually being teaching points in our journey to prepare us for that one we will all day find. And when that relationship finally arrives... grasp its hand and begin the journey together...For you will know you have finally met that one you have longed to meet, to have, and to hold.