As I sit and contemplate what it is and how I am going to share my thoughts I feel the gamut of emotions running through me. I guess when it comes to me I want to know the good first allowing that to help me prepare for the bad.... So here it goes:
Today is a day of extreme happiness for me. It brings tears of joy to my eyes just thinking about it.. As a big brother it what you always hope and dream for when you are "blessed" to have a little sister. Today is the day my little sister gets married. *choke* *swallow* *tears* It is the day when you know the pain of relationships finally goes away, no more mistreatment, no more heartache, no more lies, no more tears of pain.... Finally the right man has come into her life that you have always hoped and prayed for. It fills my heart to know that someone has finally taken her hand and began to treat her like the princess she is and the woman she deserves to be. He has started to show her the love she had not experienced and the support she hasn't known. That "soul mate" experience we all long to find. And for that I find myself in uber happiness. You can throw in the emotions elated, excited, confident,
As the emotions flow I find myself fighting them back. I feel crushed at the fact that I am not going to be able to witness this grand day. I feel anger at the fact the company I am currently working for could not find it in themselves to approve a couple of days off so that I may attend this event. Which leaves me embarrassed at the fact I am the only sibling unable to attend the wedding. There are so many things I could continue with..... Many of them may repeat or fuel other emotions already represented.
So I often find myself reminding that inner soul that today is not my day it is Danielle's day. Today is about her. I am thankful that she has ask my little girl to be the flower girl. I am sure she will be the cutest one there... I can't wait to see the pictures! Today I am thankful that the family will all be able to attend in peace and support and share an experience of memories that only a few can honestly say that were there for.
2.1.12
1.1.12
Vision 2012
It's that time of year when we all reflect on the past 365 days. "Out with the old and in with the new" some will say, others will welcome a new year with anticipation and excitement hoping the next is better than the past. Others don't want anything to change, it was a great year for them. Still others will write down their goals, their hopes, and their dreams in anticipation that one day life will be as they want it to be. How you choose to ring in the new year will be one of personal reflection, outlook, and hope. A dream, a desire, a wish, a want, or simply a "cleaning of the closet". I hope 2012 brings each of you a time of joy, a time of pure happiness, laughter, wealth, knowledge, and strength. Though we all hope for the best we know there will be times we will have to embrace struggle, pain, loss, and shortcomings.... It's OK those times will only make us stronger. So to each of you I raise my glass and wish you all the best for 2012.
I leave you with what I set for myself for the new year.......
1. Do more of the little things, they make a BIG difference
2. Begin to learn French and Spanish
3. More God time, less me time... read the bible daily
4. Digitize and organize... paper has got to go
5. Hike more trails, walk less aisles.... don't need all the stuff its time to simplify
6. More contemplation and reflection over tea and coffee and less time concentrating on the sodas
7. More huggin, less sluggin
8. Increase the journaling and blogging.... write it out, dont hold it in
9. More peas and carrots, less couch potato
10. Add more time WITH friends and family catching up, and less time ON my friends list trying to do so
11. Walk the feet, don't run the mouth
12. Slow down the fast food
13. Take a class or two
14. Turn more pages, do less "clicking"
15. They key to good health is in the numbers.. Get them checked
They say sharing your resolutions helps to be more successful with your attempts to meet your goals... What are some of your resolutions for the new year?
I leave you with what I set for myself for the new year.......
1. Do more of the little things, they make a BIG difference
2. Begin to learn French and Spanish
3. More God time, less me time... read the bible daily
4. Digitize and organize... paper has got to go
5. Hike more trails, walk less aisles.... don't need all the stuff its time to simplify
6. More contemplation and reflection over tea and coffee and less time concentrating on the sodas
7. More huggin, less sluggin
8. Increase the journaling and blogging.... write it out, dont hold it in
9. More peas and carrots, less couch potato
10. Add more time WITH friends and family catching up, and less time ON my friends list trying to do so
11. Walk the feet, don't run the mouth
12. Slow down the fast food
13. Take a class or two
14. Turn more pages, do less "clicking"
15. They key to good health is in the numbers.. Get them checked
They say sharing your resolutions helps to be more successful with your attempts to meet your goals... What are some of your resolutions for the new year?
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