I am coming to the breaking point in my life where I am going to have to decide. I am beginning to feel as if I need to start asking the questions of when is enough... enough?! I think I can ask that question is
ALL aspects of my life. Today at work in
IT I felt as if it would never end. I didn't
think any of my accounts would stop calling or finding more for me to do. My worklists are taxed now. I need a week to just try and complete what has already been submitted to me. The depressing thing for me is at the end of the day I have accomplished nothing I set out to do for
me. I even had a list of things I needed to get done and didn't. Why? I was working, the phones were ringing ALL day, text was being beaten into me, everybody wanted something today and despite what I attempted to accomplish I felt as if I failed in the end. NO Balance.... I didnt have the time to eat properly, I didn't have the time for 10 minutes to myself to just breathe, I didn't even have the time to pray. (OH I can see the comments/ emails coming now). I ask myself what is this all for..... A paycheck? What do I truly need in life that requires me to work this many hours? NOTHING!!
I found an
article today written by Leo Babauta that pretty much explained what I was thiking at this point. Such questions to help you better understand how to find "enough" and how to apply it to your life. There were links on "how to
edit your life", and "how to take control of your crazy days". I even
Google'd the subject and found and interesting
book I am going to be adding to the shelf to read. A book that tied to an experience I recently had when I took 5 minutes to read a friends blog. They talked about not taking the time to just read anymore. We are destined to "
search" for what we want and not read about something we want to know. It is easy to result to use keywords now than cliff notes.
"Scripting" has gone
from times of Shakespeare to times of developers and coders. We have become a community of people whom need to plea to limit the technologies that could change the very definition of who we are. If you look around we are on the verge of crossing the line from born to made, from created to built.OKKKKK well my mind is a blur and I apologize. I began this post with one point and ended on something different. I think that is a sheer sign of exhaustion and I just need to call it a day. With that I will leave you all with one of my favorite readings from the book of Revelations that will sum up what this is all about in the end.....
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.... Revelations 21:4
think any of my accounts would stop calling or finding more for me to do. My worklists are taxed now. I need a week to just try and complete what has already been submitted to me. The depressing thing for me is at the end of the day I have accomplished nothing I set out to do for me. I even had a list of things I needed to get done and didn't. Why? I was working, the phones were ringing ALL day, text was being beaten into me, everybody wanted something today and despite what I attempted to accomplish I felt as if I failed in the end. NO Balance.... I didnt have the time to eat properly, I didn't have the time for 10 minutes to myself to just breathe, I didn't even have the time to pray. (OH I can see the comments/ emails coming now). I ask myself what is this all for..... A paycheck? What do I truly need in life that requires me to work this many hours? NOTHING!!
I found an article today written by Leo Babauta that pretty much explained what I was thiking at this point. Such questions to help you better understand how to find "enough" and how to apply it to your life. There were links on "how to edit your life", and "how to take control of your crazy days". I even Google'd the subject and found and interesting book I am going to be adding to the shelf to read. A book that tied to an experience I recently had when I took 5 minutes to read a friends blog. They talked about not taking the time to just read anymore. We are destined to "search" for what we want and not read about something we want to know. It is easy to result to use keywords now than cliff notes. "Scripting" has gone 
from times of Shakespeare to times of developers and coders. We have become a community of people whom need to plea to limit the technologies that could change the very definition of who we are. If you look around we are on the verge of crossing the line from born to made, from created to built.OKKKKK well my mind is a blur and I apologize. I began this post with one point and ended on something different. I think that is a sheer sign of exhaustion and I just need to call it a day. With that I will leave you all with one of my favorite readings from the book of Revelations that will sum up what this is all about in the end.....
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