As the sun rose on my morning walk I realized it was time to make some changes...
For some of you this will serve as a final notice that I am
removing you from my friend’s lists here as well as other social media sites
and such. Your association in life with a very select few holds a purpose that
I remove you from here…Though it’s not a personal matter between you and I it’s
just what I feel is best for the current events unfolding in my life. I will
not name you individually here nor will I anywhere else…. I am not like that.
Should you be removed and feel you have a valid point for wanting to continue
to be a part of my world send me a message, give me a call and we can talk
about it…But for now I will list a few of my reasons here:
1.
First and foremost, as many of you know I have
an unconditional love for my daughter. Aside from my relationship with God, she
is the center of my world, she is everything to me and always will be.. There
will not be a trial or tribulation that will keep me from fighting for her in
my life. We enjoy life when we are together or even when we are apart talking
on the phone.. simple things like coloring in a book to spending time at the
beach, an afternoon movie to a book before bed…we find joy in all of our time
together. She is happy, she wants to spend time with her daddy and well as do I
with her..
2.
Unfortunately, some of you have a purpose of
being an association to me simply for support of a vindictive nature as I am
learning and that my “friends” will come to an end. As I mentioned in a recent
post, I do not want the negativity nor do I need any more than what I already
have going on… The drama is overwhelming enough.. I am regulating it. I don’t
want it.
3.
Some of you were like family to me and though I
still care about all of you deeply I feel it is best we say good bye and close
this chapter of our life book. Please know I will always be here if you need
anything, many of you have my phone number to call, if not here it is.
832-552-6818. Feel free to call or text me any time.
Now
onto something of a little life lesson for all of us…
When
it comes to the decisions we will be faced with in life we will find ourselves making
decisions that we may not want to make yet will be the right decision to make.
We may go against what is right and decide to make decisions out of hatred,
jealousy, and misguidance that will not be for the best interest of others,
ourselves, or a neutral objective. We are not perfect, understand I surely am
not. This is where prayer with God can way heavy on our decisions. Maybe you
are non-religious so talking to a friend or even a professional can help you
with making a decision. Understand though when innocent children become
involved this escalates everything to a whole different level. When you make
decisions out of hatred and jealousy to severely limit a child’s time with
another parent because you want to be vindictive, hateful, and simply
irrational… there is nothing good or right about it… It has been proven in many
cases from years past by highly educated professionals that you are
psychologically damaging that child for years to come… You are trying to
brainwash them, lead them into a life issue of codependency, and rip a world
from them that means so much to them in a very positive way already. This is so
when the relationship between that child and parent is a blessing full of unconditional
love, nurturing, support, and guidance. If these decisions are an issue of
jealousy that you wish you had an equivocal experience with them then maybe a
simple evaluation of what priorities you have placed in your life need to be
adjusted. Yet in the end how a parent can fathom that it is within the best
interest of a child to leave them crying and wanting to talk to and spend time
with the other parent and to not allow that to happen is something I still
struggle to find anything good from. We
pay witness to and read of examples of this happening every day. Does it make
you as a parent feel better knowing you are getting “one up” via a child pawn
chess move? Kudos to you such a big and mature thing for you to do…. I will pray for your lost soul.
Issues
such as above and other decisions we make all have reciprocation and
repercussion… We may make decisions inside of “the big picture”, against our
better judgment, or as some say shot from the hip. We will one day have to live
with our decisions in a way we never thought at the time would happen.. I guess
you can enjoy the “good ride” for the short period of time that it happens. As
I pray for you, you pray as well or ask someone to pray for you, your soul, for
your forgiveness…. One day you will have to answer for your actions. I am not
playing God here… I am just sharing lessons learned from personal past
experiences in life.
As
I close, please understand this is a simple note not shared with regards to any
one event, person, place or thing…. This is information from one friend to
another that we all can read and take a moment to evaluate ourselves and make sure
we have a big picture view of what we are doing with the decisions we make in
our lives.. I find myself right now in the middle of some severe personal
struggle with what is going on around me and this is my medium for getting that
out…. I write. I am surely not claiming to be the next Dr Phil, my life
sometimes seems more fitted for Jerry Springer yet I am trying to get to a life
of grace and love for all… We all struggle with that.. All of us. I hope you can
all take something positive away from this.. God Bless
